Catatonic Entry

Opening Blurb

Amagash post. Thank you, Immy, for embedding that word in my brain.

So like, I died. And then I got to the pearly gates and St. Peter said, "liek omg u dindt upate ur xanga lol u cnat com n her n00b rofl." And I gave him a blank stare and came back here to post. Maybe they'll let me in in an hour or so when I'm done.

Wherein He Has, Like, A Life

Or not. ">> I've been computing compulsively--roleplaying and goofing around on my computer almost nonstop. I think I'm trying to distract myself from this so-called "life" I now have. Y'know where I...hey, lemme tell you about that.

So I got a job. Research Aide I, specifically. What do I do? What I do best. Play with big computers and babble chemistry nonsense. No, I don't get to make many snide, condescending remarks to morons, as there AREN'T ANY. I'm somewhere between disappointed and utterly relieved. It's just me, my computer, my molecular modeling software, my programming environment, my calculator, my notebook, my pen...and Dr. Paddison. Awesome, awesome dude. Canadian, so he has that funky Canadian accent that's...y'know. Canadian. Oh, and I'm making $7.50/hr--more than I've ever made before--and it's full time. So...benefits. ^^ Even though I don't really get those. I.e, no health insurance, retirement plan, etc. Like I need those. Pah. I can take care of myself. Just pass me that tournequet for my arm, yeah?

And then I moved out. Yeah. Mom said I had 'til my eighteenth birthday to move out. Come May 27th, I'd packed two boxes. Fortunately, I had the Jr. Rhino Movers come help--namely Andre, Emil and Ben. Took my station wagon, Andre's truck, our twelve passenger van, and my step-dad's friend Billy's pickup to move all my stuff, but it got moved, and I celebrated my birthday all in the same day. Nine or ten-ish hours. Heckuva day, and I was wiped. But then we watched Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. I had mixed opinions about that movie. Maybe I'll reveal them later. But needless to say, by the end of the day I was exhausted beyond all reason. But I stayed up most of the night playing Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodlines, got four-ish hours of sleep, and was fine for church the next morning. I just crashed for most of Sunday. Nice, quiet birthday, just the way I like 'em.

Of course, that implies I'm eighteen now. Which I am. And y'know what? It was like when I turned thirteen: No different from the day before. People talk like some radical change comes over you when you turn eighteen? Whatever. ">> I haven't had any epiphanies since I was nine and realised that jumping off of a bookcase doesn't help you fly. But that aside...

Needless to say, it's been an experience. I've survived for over a week on my own now. I've gone to Wal-Mart and watched over $100 go [poof] with just a few items. But I'm a big boy now. I didn't cry. Just sobbed a little. v.v;; I've figured out that the house doesn't magically clean itself. I've figured out that opening a can of pear halves in the living room is stupid, largely because of all the juice that flies out everywhere because you didn't have the thing on a counter. And most importantly, I've figured out that can openers, even dull ones, are life savers. I spent a half hour punching holes in a can of chili with my knife before I had an opening large enough to scoop out the contents. I very nearly starved to death, and I almost ate the stuff raw.

That said, my house is awesome. 1400sqft on a half acre lot. Ten minute drive to work on bad days. $150/month rent. The hideous seventies' burnt orange shag carpet could go, but it's a small price to pay. I just need a washer and dryer now. And yes, I did figure out where the laundromat was. I am wearing clean underwear, thank you. ...I think. <<;

Pointless Babble

So my dad got me a portable XM unit. Yes, it's awesome. No, you can't have it. Yes, I will remove your body parts if you get any closer to me and my XM radio.

But I'm in love with it. Except for one thing: the reception. All the cursed trees about the neighbourhood block out the microwaves, meaning I can only get good reception if the thing is in its little docking station with the external antenna pointed in just the right direction.

NEVERTHELESS, this difficulty has been solved. See, I was smart. I asked for the Pioneer Inno. What is the Pioneer Inno, you ask? I say, go stick your head in a bucket for not knowing. Pah. ">> It's a portable XM unit with a built in MP3 player. Which means that the way around my problem is to let the thing run all night on my favourite channel--47--and record it directly into the MP3 player portion. So that's nine-ish hours of music that I'm not expecting, some of which I know and some of which I don't but quickly love anyway, that I can play all day at work or when I run or whatever. See? I'm a genius. For reading the instructions. [beam]

And while we're on the subject of technology, FFVII:AC. Yes, the correlation is particularly distant, but I figure I might as well summarise the film for those who haven't seen it yet, just to spoil it for you. Now, note I've never played any FF games. Well, I played FF Legends on a ROM, and I played a remake of FF1, but those don't really count for much. But briefly: Amazing graphics, awesome choreography, freaking awesome fighting, lamest plot known to mankind. Fortunately I didn't give a crap about the plot because I was entirely exhausted, and therefore I just enjoyed watching digitally rendered people bash each other over their digitally rendered heads with their digitally rendered swords/fists/batons. So if you're looking for a good plot, you're better off sticking with The Matrix. If you're looking for kickbutt action, watch this one.

Conclusion and Remarks

Yes, dears, it's over already. Sob. Weep. General shedding of tears and expressions of utter misery. Hey, it's lunchtime and I've not gotten any work done this morning. ">>

Tiff-chan: I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT ME COMING NEXT MONTH, TOO!! ^^;

">> [koff] Sorry I vanished. Oh, but I got an A in physics. Final Exam score: 105%. I'm just cool like that. Uh.

[totally does not know how in heck he got a 105]

Jon: Danke. Got new music. [loves Kansas]

I still haven't gotten hold of any phosphoric acid for my Gummi Bears, though. Pity.

Lizzie: YES. I'M ALIVE, CURSIT. I'VE ONLY BEEN TALKING WITH YOU EVERY SINGLE WEEK. YOU DOUBT MY EXISTENCE DESPITE THE SHEER AND UNMITIGATED STUPIDITY THAT RESULTS EACH AND EVERY SUNDAY? I'M TYPING IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE I FORGOT TO TAKE THEM OFF. IT'S KINDA FUN. [CHUCKLE]

...Okay, the [CHUCKLE] was kinda freaky. ">>

Lunchtime, babe. I'm outta here.

Guthie

Metallica - For Whom The Bell Tolls

Make his fight on the hill in the early day
Constant chill deep inside
Shouting gun, on they run through the endless gray
On they fight, for they are right, yes, but who's to say?
For a hill, men would kill. Why? They do not know
Severed wounds test their pride
Men of five, still alive through the raging glow
Gone insane from the pain that they surely know

For whom the bell tolls
Time marches on
For whom the bell tolls

Take a look to the sky just before you die
It's the last time he will
Blackened roar, massive roar, fills the crumbling sky
Shattered goal fills his soul with a ruthless cry
Stranger now are his eyes to this mystery
He hears the silence so loud
Crack of dawn, all is gone except the will to be
Now they see what will be, blinded eyes to see

For whom the bell tolls
Time marches on
For whom the bell tolls

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Archival Entry

Opening Blurb
So, and indeed. I return to haunt ye all with drivel of terror and general mindlessness. Congratulate yourselves.

[is listening to the Castlevania soundtrack] Love, love, love orchestral rock, ja.

I was talking with Ben the Lounge Rat in the Honours Lounge yesterday. We were discussing chemistry and how much he hates it. The conversation ran something like this:

Ben: "I hate chemistry. Chemistry sucks."
Guthie: "Naw, man, chem is fun!"
Ben: "No. It is not fun. Chemistry is evil."
Guthie: "Well, chem labs are evil. Not to mention boring. But chem theory is fun."
Ben: "No, it's really not."
Guthie: "See, I don't understand labs. Labs are boring. They make us synthesise aspirin. Who wants to synthesise aspirin? Beyond being the most boring, pointless exercise in futility ever devised by mankind, it's full of nauseating fumes. See, I want to throw Gummi Bears into test tubes full of phosphoric acid and watch them writhe and explode and have little pieces come flying out, flaming and screaming in agony."
Ben: "...you're a freak, man. You belong with those people."

I'm a freak, guys. It's now official.

Wherein He Runs Around in Circles and Screams Like a Little Kid
So like, so like, I'm flying out to Arizona next month. To see Tiff-chan, ja? And like, and like, I'll be staying from about midnight Sunday the 19th to around nine at night Thursday the 23rd. And like, and like, I still managed to get seven hours of sleep last night! XD!!

...Seriously though, I'm psyched. At first I thought we might get to visit for a few hours, and then that was out. So I thought I could stay for a day or two and commute by bus. Four days on a bus for two days' visit. I'd make that trade, but it still wasn't looking too great. And then Mrs. Yonts found a flight that was actually affordable and would require that I stay for four days to get the rate. And so and thus I have been on an undefeatable high for the past twenty-four hours. Celebrate with me, I command you. ^^

Wherein He Summarises His "Health"
Yes. "Health." With the little quotation marks.

So I would assume that most of you know by now about my back problem. The one where I have level one spondylolisthesis--forward displacement of one of the lumbar vertebrae over the vertebra below it. Something like a slipped disk, but not quite the same. Whatever the heck it is, it's evil. I can't run anymore. I really can't do anything that requires force of more than probably about eight pounds without concentrated effort. And it keeps me in continual pain. Not really a concious pain, but more of something that resides in the back of my mind and just continually licks at my stamina. Of course, it gets a lot worse when I overexert myself. For example, when I act like a complete and utter fool and go run despite the pain. I usually end up writhing on my bed for about ten minutes afterwards until I can at least stand up again.

However! My mom, having similar difficulties with her neck/arm problem, actively seeks out stuff that can fix the problem, or at least mitigate the pain. And there's this guy named Egoscue who has a program that's supposed to help realign people with skeletal...misalignments. Exercise program. So she's been doing the program and it's been helping immensely. She says that oftentimes right after the exercises her pain is almost gone.

I've been doing crunches to try to get my stomach muscles in shape to where they can hold my spine correctly, so she adapted one of her exercises for me. Basically, I put my feet against a wall such that my lower legs are perpendicular to the wall but my hips are closer to the wall than my knees are. And then I'm supposed to hold a pillow tightly between my knees while I do my crunches. It's been three days since I've had any medication whatsoever and I'm only in mild pain. It's awesome. ^^

Turns out there's a guy who'll be in Nashville next Thursday who's a liscenced Egoscue practitioner and I'm going to see him then and try to get a program for me. So maybe I'll get this stuff fixed after all. ^^

Conclusion and Remarks
Yep. That's all. No giant philosophical tirade for you today. I have physics homework to do, so I don't have time to think up some problem with the world to rant about. ^^;

Lizzie: Yes! Yes! I updated! Aren't you proud of me? ^^

He really doesn't act gay. I never would have known if he hadn't told us. As long as he keeps his...stuff away from me, I'm cool. ">>

Jon: I think I'm alive. My pulse is a bit low. As per usual. <<;;

...Yeah, that was my original point. ^^ Thanks for the summary.

Joe: Dude, did you realise the entire second paragraph of my last post was all about that very thing? I'm not that blind. -.-; Jeez.

Catchy, yeah. Artistic, maybe. As good as the old stuff, heck no.

Susannah: ...Actually that one was kind of short. Comparatively. [koff]

See, I like chemistry. But my chemistry teacher makes me hate it. Or maybe just him. x.x; I don't listen to his lectures anymore at any rate.

NM: ^^ I'm glad. It's something that grinds my nerves as well, though I tend to smile and nod and plot vengeance behind their backs. I'm nice like that.

x.x; Gross. I probably would have hit back. ">>

And today's song is dedicated to Tiff-chan. Not necessarily because of the whole visit thing. ^^ Enjoy.

And now I must retire to my Physics doom. Fare thee well, brave comrades. I shall return, bloody, bruised and beaten, but cynical nevertheless.

Guthie

Matchbox Twenty - Could I Be You

Something is wrong with the sum of us
That I can't seem to erase
How can I be the only one
Without a smile on my face

Well now, you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

You show your pain like it really hurts
And I can't even start to feel mine
Well, I'm standing in place
With my head first and I shake, I shake
I see your progress stretched out for miles and miles

Well now, you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

This is the sound that I make
These are the words I chose
Somehow the right thing to say
Just won't come out
Just won't come out

Well now, you're laughing out loud
At just the thought of being alive
And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

And I was wondering
Could I just be you tonight

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Prodigal Entry

Currently Listening Bat Country By Avenged Sevenfold Bat Country see related

FIRSTS...

First best friend: Garrett.  Waaay back when I lived in that apartment with my mom in Knoxville when she had gone back to college.
First car: '88 Subaru Legacy
First date: Mmm...get back to you on that one.
First real kiss: Romantic kiss? [chuckle] When inevitability becomes avoidable.
First screen name: jocsos
First self purchased cd: Jars of Clay's The Eleventh Hour
First pets: Frisky.  He was a dog.  Ergo, I despise the creatures now.
First piercing/tattoo: Well, I tried to pierce my thumb about ten years ago in a car door...
First artist/song you remember hearing in your house: Bubba Shot the Jukebox Last Night

LASTS...

Last cigarette: Hardyharhar[koffkoffkoff]
Last car ride: 3.5hrs ago.  Driving to campus.
Last kiss: When I left the house. ^^;
Last good cry: Week or two ago. Yeah.
Last library book checked out: Dante Alighieri's The Inferno
Last movie seen: Johnny English
Last beverage drank: Chocolate milk. ^^ In the cafeteria.
Last food consumed: That excellent apple pie they make at the cafeteria.
Last crush: [chuckle] Mary Elizabeth Moore.  Nothin' serious, though. ^^
Last phone call: Called Justin about 45 minutes ago to set up a rendezvous to exchange chem lab info.
Last time showered: This morning.  Same as every day.
Last shoes worn: What's left of my old running shoes.
Last cd played: Um...o.o; I don't know.  Possibly Switchfoot's Meant To Live
Last item bought: $28.36 of gas.
Last annoyance: Being soaked by the rain despite my new rain jacket.
Last disappointment: Realising that my dad had stolen the cables for the VCR. Thus, I couldn't watch The Bourne Identity last night.
Last shirt worn: Orange Tommy Hilfiger t-shirt with "HILFIGER" emblazoned across the chest.
Last website visited: IMDB to look up the last movie I saw in a theatre.
Last word you said: “Bye.” Hanging up with Justin.
Last song you sang: Two Princes by Spin Doctors

QUESTIONS...

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:07...ish.
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds, definitely.  Far more useful than pearls, plus they have an awesome molecular structure
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? The Pacifier
4. What is your favorite TV show? The news. ^^;
5. What did you have for breakfast? Bagles and bread with butter and apple butter
6. What is your middle name?: Daniel
7. What is your favorite cuisine?: Mexican
8. What foods do you dislike? Tomatoes, pickles, mayonnaise, onions, cous cous
9. What is your favorite chip flavor? Sour cream
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Soundgarden's Superunknown
11. What type of car do you drive? '95 Ford Taurus
12. Favorite sandwich? Bacon cheeseburger
13. What characteristic do you despise? Blind obstinance
14. Favorite item of clothing? That t-shirt that's been beaten to a pulp.  It feels awesome. ^^

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation? ...My room. ^^
16. What is the color of your Bathroom? Dark blue
17. Favorite Brand of Clothing? TOMMY HILFIGER
18. Where would you retire to? Somewhere not too far from the city, but certainly not too close.  And somewhere with a warm climate.
19. Favorite time of the day? Evening.
20. What was your most memorable birthday? When I turned 6. Moon walk, pony, balloons, my whole kindergarten class. Wheeha.
21. Where were you born? Chattanooga, TN
22. Favorite sport to watch? None. ^^
25. What fabric detergent do you use? Some off-brand stuff that my mom orders from a remote corner of the country.
26. Coke or Pepsi? Coke, duh.
27. Are you a morning person or a night owl? ...Night. Owl. '>>
28. What is your shoe size? 13
29. Do you have any pet? My black cat Red. ^^
30.Any exciting news you'd like to share with your family & friends? I'M GAY! ...XD
31. What did you want to be when you were little? Missionary/Bible translator
32. What are you meant to be doing now? How the heck do I know?
Are you all still awake? I seem to be.

FAVORITES...

[Color]: Medium green
[Number]: 7
[Animal]: Cat
[Soda]: IBC Root Beer
[Book]: Sir Walter Scott's Ivanhoe

Do you..
[Color your hair?]: [chuckle] No.
[Have tattoos?]: Not unless myriad scars count.
[Have Piercings?]: Nein, dear.
[Cheat on tests/homework?]: You wish.
[Like roller coasters?]: O.O;; NO!
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]: Not particularly
[Want more piercings?]: I don't have any to begin with.
[Like cleaning?]: Depends on what I'm cleaning.
[Write in cursive or print?]: Neither.  It's called "chicken scratch."
[Sweat a lot?] No, actually.
[Know how to drive?] Don't ask the cops, but yeah.
[Own a cell phone?]: If that's what this thing clipped to my belt is.
[Ever get off the computer?]: No.

HAVE YOU EVER?...

[Been in a fist fight?] No.
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] ...I don't think so...XD Nein.
[Stolen anything?] ...<<; Yes.
[Held a gun?] I own one, dipwits.
[Drank?] Had some strawberry zinfandel once.  It wasn't bad. Had some other kind of wine before that and almost hurled.
[Been so drunk you couldn't remember your name?] ...<<; I can't remember my name anyways. But no.
[Considered a life of crime?] ...Well yes, actually.
[Considered being a hooker?] ...What...the hell?
[Cheated on someone?] No. -.-'
[Cried over a boy/girl?] Yeah.
[Lied to someone?] Let's just say 'yes' and not ask how many times, shall we?
[Been in love?] Nein, dears.
[Fallen for your best friend?] Well, I guess since I'm gay it is a possibility...
[Made out with JUST a friend?] Ha.  You're funny.
[Been rejected?] Yeah. They wouldn't let me join the circus. Bakas.
[Used someone?] [koff] It happens to be my specialty. But I don't do it much anymore. <<;;
[Been used?] YES. -.-;

CURRENTS...

[Current clothing] Deep crimson longsleeve t-shirt with three buttons, Tommy jeans, white and blue walking shoes.
[Current mood]: Mediocre
[Current taste]: Wood.  Toothpicks are tasty, you should try them some time.
[Current hair]: Cut, finally. And somewhat wet from the rain.
[Current thing I ought to be doing]: Programming.  Or studying for the two tests I have this week.
[Current cds in stereo]: None. '>> But I'm listening to Semisonic's Closing Time. Awesomeness.
[Current job]: Part-time data entry dude for my dad's company.

DO YOU...
[Do drugs?] [sshhhp] Dude... ^^; Skelaxin!
[Have a dream that keeps coming back?] Yeah.  Not too often.
[Play an instrument?] Piano...sorta.
[Believe there is life on other planets?] Yeah.
[Remember your first love?] Difficult when it's never been done, no?
[Still love him/her?] ...Absolutely. '>>
[Read the newspaper?] What? There's a newspaper out here?
[Believe in miracles?] Ja.
[Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?] With a little intervention from above, certainly.
[Do well in school?] Well let's see...this thing here says "4.0." Infer what you wish.
[Go to or plan to go to college] Yop. I'm sitting in the computer lab right now.
[Wear hats?] Yech.
[Hate yourself?] More often than not.
[Have an obsession?] Several.
[Have a secret crush?] Depends on who you ask.
[Collect anything?] Dust.
[Have a best friend?] Heck yeah. [whacks Zen on the back]
[Like your handwriting?] [shrug] I can read it, so that's good enough for me.
[Care about looks?] As long as I don't look like a total retard or vagabond, why should I?

LOVE LIFE...

[First crush] Ah Stephanie Smith. So long ago. ^^
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] No. <<;
[Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?] [chuckle] It's called "take a freakin' shower 'cause you stink."
[Are you a tease?] ...Possibly...^^
[Shy to make the first move?] Neh.

ARE YOU A...

[Wuss] Depends on the subject.  But for the most part, yeah.
[Druggy] Duuuuuuude....
[Daydreamer] Used to be more than I am now.  No more time.
[Freak] FREAK POWAH!!
[Dork] Pfft.
[Brat] My mom would say so at times.
[Sarcastic] As per usual.
[Angel] Ha...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! That's funny.
[Devil] Damn right.
[Shy] IRL, yeah.
[Talkative] Once I warm up.
[Flirty] Pfft. Is that even possible?

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